It's been nearly a year since I last updated my journal.

Not that much has happened since then.

Except pretty much being in college, getting and quitting a job, and... yeah, there ya go.

I haz a scanner but we'll see if anything really gets put on here. Might be stuff that's an inside joke or, I dunno, we'll see.

We'll see.

Wow, haven't said a thing in forever....



Yep. Still alive. :3

Just....

Really, really.... busy.

Okay.



I'm... uh, well I won't beat around the bush. I'll just get to the point and explain everything. Names won't be mentioned to protect the innocent.



So, I get home after getting off work early and had a phone converstaion with a friend I hung out with this morning. After the call, we texted for a bit when they asked a question I am not familiar with.

Bascially, they asked if we could/would ever 'become more than friends'. This person wanted a straight foward answer since it had been bothering them for a while.

As I pondered over me answer, I realized that there had been subtle hints that this person cared for me more than a friend would and that they could be almost be classified as my 'significant other'. I mean, for example, this friend suddenly kissed me on the cheek before leaving and I reacted nervously since that had never happened to me with someone that wasn't a family member.

Our texts then had taken an emotional turn and I answered to the best of my ability that I cared for them with all my heart but I just wasn't ready to take a step further than our close friendship.



In a way, though, I am actually uncertain although I'm happy we reached a point in our conversation to be satisfied with each other's comments and let the topic go.

I've never had anyone ask that before and I am unsure if I can really be someone that important in anyone's life. I don't find anything attractive about myself and believe to be a loner to the end of my days. I don't see how anyone could actually, uh, ya know, feel about me in an intimate manner.

I don't know. This person is making it clear that a relationship between the two of us if very welcome but I don't know if I should accept it. I don't want to hurt our friendship by both of us being together as a couple. There are other people out there and I don't think I'm the one my friend might want.







Someone help.

Yeah. Pretty calm with Ike coming up the coast.

The only thing I'm concerned about is having to work Saturday night when he's storming here.



Right now, my friend is trying any way she can to get me to pick her up after school. XD
Her dad is supposed to be picking her up and she's checking if it's okay with him.

Me?

That high school traffic in the afternoon is PURE HELL. But I might brave it this once.

there was going to be something written here that detailed the triumphs and defeats of a nineteen year old's first college week......





but she feels that it is unimportant to bore with such details.









Instead, she will now go play Metal Gear Solid.











SNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE